The last two years I've had my blog titles as "A year of Change" and "A year of Growth". Both of those accurately described how the last two years of my life went. That being said, I am now moving on to bigger and better things. Change and growth will continue to happen in my life, but now that I am finally in a good place I can focus on finding joy in the journey. With the help of the Saviour and the Atonement, I have changed my life, I have moved forward and am finally happy again. I've had fleeting moments of happiness in the last couple of years, but nothing as lasting as how I feel right now. I know that this happiness comes from living the commandments of God and from being worthy enough to receive His blessings. Iknow this because I have felt and seen the tender mercies of the Lord working in my life, blessing me with experiences and spiritual insights that I needed.
I had a nice talk with my bishop today about where my life is going. I have felt kind of stuck the last little while and sought him out to get some guidance. Not that I'm stuck in a bad way, but I've just been feeling like it's not enough being here any more. I feel like I need a new challenge in my life, something else to help me grow. I've been asking for direction, but bishop pointed out that I may not have had an open mind about the whole thing because I wasn't getting any definite answers to my prayers. I realized that I had a sort of pre-thought-out plan of what I wanted to happen, but I wasn't open to hearing something that wasn't in my plan. Bishop warned me of pride and of letting my own thoughts interfere with what the Lord wants for me.
I now have to completely rethink where it is I need to go from here. My walls and barriers are being broken down and my mind is slowly opening to the possibilities, whether I like the idea of them or not. I have complete confidence that the Spirit will direct me which way I need to go. So for now, know that I am well and am looking for something more out of life.
Until next time,
-J
