Of late there have been multiple instances where I have had to ignore my immediate feelings to retaliate to the negativism that has been sent in my way and instead, respond in a mature, non-threatening way. This required Hurculean effort on my part. I take great pride in being able to defend my arguments and myself through intelligent and cohesive defense, so to not defend myself, to me, feels like giving up. I hate that feeling. I have been suffering with feelings of anger and frustration, mostly because I can't say what I want to say to the people I want to say it to, and it's getting all bottled up inside of me. I'm frustrated with myself for not being able to let this all go. I should be able to let it slide off my shoulders and forget about it, but I can't for some reason. I know that the adversary can gain a hold very easily when there is anger in your heart, so I am trying very hard to be at peace. However, I can't seem to block out the negative influx from other sources. I have been praying for strength, praying for peace, and reading my scriptures, but my anger continues to be kindled. I cannot seem to find a lasting solution to this problem. So what I am asking is, is there any productive outlet that you can recommend to me to rid myself of these feelings of anger and frustration? I welcome any and all solutions.
Until next time,
-J
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